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I like how happy Honey Boo Boo's family is. Ugh! Just as I was getting the motivation and inspiration to tackle my German learning mission, the discs that come with the book are taking so long to get imported into iTunes that I regret ever doing it. It has been 44 minutes of waiting for this audio to get into my computer and ready to use. Then there is syncing the whole thing because... Ugh! Fuck it! So, this somewhat promising early morning has turned from possible productivity to watching " Here Comes Honey Boo Boo " on the net. I mean, how far can one fall? From prospects of learning, to swimming in the cesspool of reality television. Just great! Not to mention being hormonal and craving food EVERY. SINGLE. HOUR! I just want to cry. I'll study tomorrow, or later today I guess... The motivation to learn has not only left, but even if it had not, I am now too tired to think, since it is almost 3am. During all of this, I keep on thinking how Google and

Hello, Bow Down! Nuff said. The End!!

Hello, Nelson Mandela died today, so they say. I don't know why it felt like he was dead on the 4th of December and not the 5th. Although, it felt like he died on the 4th of December 2013, it was confirmed on the 5th of December,  making the 5th quite an emotional day. It's like having a feeling, brushing it off as PMS or just weird vibes, then suddenly getting the confirmation later on that the feeling was true, and things suddenly sinking in. The news sunk in very dreadfully deep inside my soul, and surprisingly so, because I thought that with all the false alarms that have been going off since 2011, I would have been prepared to feel less than what I feel now, which is a sense of loss like none I have felt before. It is like a dream died, and realization of how that I underestimated how Nelson Mandela being alive comforted me. Now that he is gone, I feel deeply sad, depressed and afraid, on top of being marvelled and inspired by the changes he and the ANC affected my

Hey There, My Beloved Readers with Style, Below is a breakdown of an event you CAN NOT miss!! "Soweto talent exposed to international visitors as designers showcase with international presence.    The Soweto fashion Week has taken its come back, with its Founder and CEO Stephen Manzini. With  UNIQUE IDENTITY PTY Communications, Manager Jackie Phamotse heading SFW PR management great things will come out of this much anticipated extravaganza.  Taking place from 21st -23rd November 2013 at the Walter Sisulu Square ( Soweto Hotel) in Kliptown, you can't allow yourself to miss it.    Soweto Hotel Luxurious Foyer SWF will bring a fun flair to the historical neighborhood of Nelson Mandela. Designers that hold their best work on the bodies of super models say that their work will blow millions out of their seats by the end of each evening, as their garments are of international standards.  The show will feature only 12 designers throughout

You know what? Fuck it! I have things to do, people to see, places to go and things to achieve.  I did the iron transfusion last week Thursday, shot an ad the next day on Friday, rested on Saturday, had a workshop on Sunday, went to the Embassy in Pretoria this Thursday, and rested in between. So, I have wasted enough time. Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday were a write off. So was Friday. I can't afford that. Of all the things I need to do, going to studio and doing two astrological charts are the only things left unticked. So, I am ticking those this coming week, screw how awful I feel. Seriously! Did I not once say, "Get my music career on top or die trying?" I did!! I am sure I even said, "In sickness and in health." Basically, this is what I committed myself to doing and this what I shall do.  Oh, and they put me on the pill to control my anemia. Well, I am getting off those devil's spawns of pills. I can not function with that crap i

Hey there, It's funny how you could be literally one foot in the grave and not know it until it is almost too late. For me, although I am always watching my body, I think that I have a high threshold for things that might kill ordinary humans. But, on the other hand, my blood problems have been unable to be caught immediately because I didn't lose blood drastically. It sort of decreased gradually until I was left on empty. Just to give you an idea of how far this is, once again, doctors aren't sure how I am still walking and talking. S-Ferritin levels should be at 20 or more, but right now, they are at 2. So, my body is literally not absorbing oxygen, because it can not, because my blood cells can't regenerate, have become smaller, and my body can't be satiated by the amounts of oxygen I am taking in. Then, there is hemoglobin. The normal person should have levels of 13 to function properly and mine are at 5. Again, I have volumes of useless blood in me, and

Hey there, It's hard being healthy when you're pressed for time. You eat whatever and whenever you can to just go through to the next job, chore or whatever. No wonder busy people are such assholes. They seriously ain't got time for anything other than achieving their goals, and if you're in their way from meeting their objectives, they chew you and spit you out of their way, swifty. Imagine if you're always sleep deprived and hungry all the time. You would be slapping people for just breathing the wrong way. Although, I haven't been horrible to people, or at least, I would like to think so, I have had to choose my battles and the kind of thoughts I invest in, and if it isn't in accordance with my mission, I have had to just ignore it. It can come off assholish, I suppose, but it is just mere disinterest and having more pressing matters to attend to. Ugh, what am I worried about? I am always an asshole, so nothing has changed. I mean, I was so busy

Just because I can, I post a pic of myself. Hey there, You can't get something that you think you do not deserve. If by some luck you get it, you will not hold onto it. Also, you can not demand the best, if you are not the best, because when you get the best, you will not be able to handle the best. Another thing that we should all be aware of is that, if you settle for lesser than you desire, you will get lesser than what you desire. This is not rocket science. Why people don't get this through their skulls, is a mystery that I can't even explain, even though I have also been through it. It's as if, once you understand something, and it clicks, you just don't understand how you could have done differently. I know it is easy to accuse people of being idiots, but the truth is that, people who hold onto problems for a long time, or people who repeat the same experiences, merely don't know how to do differently, even though theoretically, they know what ne

Hey Guys, To begin with, I have serious issues. It's dark and cold and I am sitting outside with a cup of tea and my laptop writing this blog, instead of sleeping like normal, sane people. Alright, alright, I have never claimed to be sane, In fact, I embrace my insanity, but on a serious note, I am hearing voices, like mumbling of people talking, and it is not in my head. I swear it isn't. It feels like the walls are thin, or my hearing has gone Super Sayan, and my bedroom is closing in on me, like it is too small, or too close to the noise, or something.  Anyway, so I am sitting outside, where two days ago there was an intruder, with my gadgets, about to drink tea and probe my mind about what is causing all this restlessness, especially since I had a massage a few hours ago.  It's like... It's like I need to go away. Away from what? Leaving is a solution as it gives a person a breath of fresh air, but if these mumbling voices are in my head, then I will fi

Hey there, All I have got to say, with a slight smile on my face is that a lot humans are liars and delusional. They can't see themselves honestly, and therefore, they can't see others clearly. Humans claim to want to be treated with respect, honesty and with decency, but when they get treated that way, the scoff at it, reacting to it as if it is a personal assault.  Well, this is the bottom line.  I don't get treated badly much because I do not stand for feeling bad. I don't even treat myself badly a lot, let alone letting other human beings treat me badly.  If you're feeling alone, as if the world has turned its back on you, feeling sorry for yourself and being horrible to other people, and feeling entitled to hurt others, I can only say that, enjoy the torture until you learn otherwise. When you wake up to feeling compassion for other human beings, you will suffer the pains they feel, and suffer the pains you contributed to make them feel. And, w

beauty is your birthright. Fight for it. Hey there, I thought I was a self saboteur, but it would seem as if I am over that phase. I am aware of people I speak to, and people I meet, who are constantly doing and acting in a way that is opposite to what they desire to be. I can say that, I was once this way, but then from a year ago, I stopped suddenly hating myself so much as to deprive myself of the happiness that I desired to have. It started with changing small habits, like honesty and being truthful, not just with myself but with others. I made a pact with myself that, I shall never deprive myself truth, because truth is love. By not depriving myself of truth about myself to myself, truth about myself to others, truth about others to myself and truth about others to others, I began to walk a road less travelled but one that allowed me to stop being horrible to myself and others, and practice tough love with myself and others. From that moment on, I started to give more c

Lying on the grass, looking upon the home that does not feel like my home. Hey There, It is Sunday, birds are chirping, and although it is still winter, the sun is warm but not aggressively so as it would in summer. We are near spring and things are looking good and I can hear spring whisper, but the grass is still brown, although, is the grass ever truly green in Johannesburg. It seems to always be olive green and slightly malnourished. The sun is also setting fast. It makes me more nostalgic and reminiscent of a few days ago when I was in the northern hemisphere, and where the sun set at around nine in the evening by the time I came back here. It was a great month away indeed, and I am sad to say that I didn't look forward to coming back as much as one would think when away from home. I could have stayed there for another month, unfortunately, a month of holidaying is already a luxury. Two months would be more than I could ever afford. I have work to do here, I have a ca

Hey there, So, while visiting my boyfriend's parents, it came to pass that I mentioned losing my shoes while my BF and I were floating down the Rhine River. It was all my fault. I think I left them when I took them off to climb onto the boat, at the river's edge, on the German side of the river. We had stopped for refreshments and I was slightly out of my mind due to the heat, so I wasn't sharp enough to remember to take the shoes once I took them off. So, the story came out about the sadness of losing my shoes, and the first thing my boyfriend's mom did was look at her son and say, "You know what you need to do. Why didn't you replace the shoes as soon as possible, or go look for them?" LOL! Let's just say that I am with his mom on this. Guys don't understand the intimate relationship that some of us develop with shoes. I loved those sandals... So, today my boyfriend's mom came and told me that she saw a pair that I should get to matc

Hey there, I have very nice transits (astrology) these last few days, and there are still more to come, including my Venus Return which will happen on the 26th of July, I think. In the meantime, I have transiting Venus trine my natal Neptune, which is a very romantic time for me - useless but romantic since all I do is float on cloud nine, swooning and dancing the Vietnamese Waltz in my head. This transits makes me seem hot and ethereal to people. Or... it makes me think I seem that way! LOL! I have started packing for my holiday, which will be a month long, a romantic getaway with my lovely manfriend and lover (don't those words sound creepy, yet doesn't boyfriend sound juvinile?). My only worry with the holiday is how I am going to minimize my luggage, or how on Earth I am going to choose which shoes to leave behind. It might sound like a trivial problem to you, but trust me, I am a Virgo, and no item of clothing in my wardrobe is without purpose, especially over a

Hey there... I am looking for musicians to accompany me.  1. Rehearsals will begin in mid Aug.  2. The gig late Sept.  3. I need 2 back up vocalists. Female. Alto and Soprano 4.  I need:  Drummer,  Bassist,  Keys  Guitarist.  **No jazz musicians**   I have my reasons for this. Rock players are most welcome. Even live hip-hop players are welcome. Rock is preferred due to my chord progressions even though I do not sing or play rock music. 5. If it works out, what comes up could be my permanent band. Spread the word. I want people who know how to play. Prodigies. It doesn't matter how long you have been playing. I just need you to be good and able to interpret my compositions. I am a guitarist too, so... We'll play together.   6. The sound: The Roots, Asa, Alicia Keys soul, D'Angelo, Adele, Amy Winehouse's, Nora Jone's and Corrine Bailey-Rae's type of band. Therefore, the drummer is the back-bone of this operation. The Bas