Wednesday, July 17, 2013

My Day Through The Stars!

Hey there,

I have very nice transits (astrology) these last few days, and there are still more to come, including my Venus Return which will happen on the 26th of July, I think. In the meantime, I have transiting Venus trine my natal Neptune, which is a very romantic time for me - useless but romantic since all I do is float on cloud nine, swooning and dancing the Vietnamese Waltz in my head.

This transits makes me seem hot and ethereal to people. Or... it makes me think I seem that way! LOL!

I have started packing for my holiday, which will be a month long, a romantic getaway with my lovely manfriend and lover (don't those words sound creepy, yet doesn't boyfriend sound juvinile?). My only worry with the holiday is how I am going to minimize my luggage, or how on Earth I am going to choose which shoes to leave behind. It might sound like a trivial problem to you, but trust me, I am a Virgo, and no item of clothing in my wardrobe is without purpose, especially over a month long period. So, for the time being, I am trying to see what I can leave behind and the next transit (astrology) shows exactly why this is a problem. I am in a period of abundance, weight-gain, indulgence and expansion. Being minimalist is therefore a difficult concept to understand and an improbable act to implement.

I do feel bloated but that's just hormonal water-retention that I experience every month. So I have definitely expanded.
In fact, the days are so good when I am not crying for nothing that my dear landlady and housemate got me a flower on Friday and it bloomed yesterday. I couldn't appreciate it yesterday because the scent was irritating my senses as I had a short stint of an ear, throat and nose infection, which is now healed, thanks to Spirulina, Ginseng, painkillers and sleep. In fact, I got good news during the week, which I can't yet share because that's the nature of the beast in our entertainment industry. Everything is shrouded in secrecy until it is finished. I hate that because for the long time I spent "paying my dues", I find great pleasure in announcing and celebrating how things are changing for the better suddenly. I guess, transiting Venus sextile my natal Pluto is on point as I am transcending beyond my shackles of waiting for good fortune. Finally!!

Venus is not just about love and sex, but it is also about money. So, you can replace the words "love" with money as you read this, if you like. Or include the word "money". 

I am very relieved that fate had the decency to have such impeccable timing because with the changes that are going on in my family, work and love life, I have managed to be at a place where I can handle the changes with the grace that I desire. There is nothing I dislike in life than rushing things because of ill preparation. Sure, most things that I am experiencing in life now I could not have planned for because they are quite serendipitous, but I can say that I made sure that when the time came for such changes, I was ready to rock. If I sound cryptic, it is intentional. I can't say much. All I can say is that, I am ready.

I am ready for love. I am ready for peace. I am ready for power. I am ready for the spotlight. I am ready for recognition for my work. I am ready for never-ending gratitude. I am ready for ALL my dreams to come true. Some people happen into their dreams and destinies, not knowing how they ended up where they are, and giving credit to their luck more than their skills. I am different. I am not one to trip onto good fortune. I have to work hard and tirelessly to be rewarded. I have to choose where I desire to go, and then I have to constantly go in that direction until I arrive at my destination.

I am not saying that life is perfect for me. I doubt that life can ever be perfect for anyone on Earth as long as some of us still suffer because we are one organism and if one section of the human organism is infected, it affects the whole. What I can say though is that, besides the unavoidable pain of being human for the time being, I am working hard in raising the vibration of the Earth into a place where we are all forced to choose love, peace and power and reject fear and pain.

I am quite an emotional person, so I'll be very caught up in feeling good, and probably crying tears of joy. Smh! 

What's fortunate about me, and what I am very grateful about, is that, for the last few years, I have tried by all means to show myself as I am, the good and then bad. Regardless of this, I have people who love me warts and all. I can safely say that it was a risk to reveal myself as I am. I did lose a lot of people, but the ones I gained are so much better, so much more loving and so in tune with me. I am constantly amazed that people actually love me for who I am. Of course, there are those who detest me for who I am, and we don't care about those. No, the important ones are those that love me, support me, and build me up - those who love me for my complexities, quirks, passionate and intense nature. I love them too. My loved ones have afforded me a rare thing, i.e. freedom to be.

Okay, the end.


Thursday, July 11, 2013

Looking For a Band!! (Reference Music Attached!)

Hey there...

I am looking for musicians to accompany me. 

1. Rehearsals will begin in mid Aug. 

2. The gig late Sept. 

3. I need 2 back up vocalists. Female. Alto and Soprano

4. I need: 
  • Drummer, 
  • Bassist, 
  • Keys 
  • Guitarist. 
**No jazz musicians** 

I have my reasons for this. Rock players are most welcome. Even live hip-hop players are welcome. Rock is preferred due to my chord progressions even though I do not sing or play rock music.

5. If it works out, what comes up could be my permanent band.Spread the word. I want people who know how to play. Prodigies. It doesn't matter how long you have been playing. I just need you to be good and able to interpret my compositions. I am a guitarist too, so... We'll play together. 

6. The sound: The Roots, Asa, Alicia Keys soul, D'Angelo, Adele, Amy Winehouse's, Nora Jone's and Corrine Bailey-Rae's type of band. Therefore, the drummer is the back-bone of this operation. The Bassist is the mastermind. 

Ref Music: 


The Roots

Alicia Keys



Amy Winehouse

Nora Jones

Corinne Bailey- Rae

Listen to the drum and bass. 
The drums are simple in most cases, and the bass is simple.
The keys guy has to be versatile for effects and adding strings.
The guitarist assists me with my guitar playing either as rhythm guitarist or as lead while I sing and play rhythmically.



P.S. We have a sound engineer already, but he has a lot on his plate, so if you think you can cut it, let me know for future consideration.

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Fuck Good Time People...

Hey there,

When I interact with people, I don't sweat the small stuff. I look instead to the character defining traits that are enough for me to deem a person a friend or a foe. It's true, isn't it, that honor and duty have been depleted in this world. Only a few still have these old-fashioned values that remind us that we are all part of one species. The rest just remind you that you are alone and they don't give a fuck about anyone but themselves. In the meantime, you care for such ingrates!

The reason why I am thinking about this is that, for the last two days, I have literally been bed ridden from pain, most of it physical, and a little mental. I had to order pizza for breakfast yesterday because I couldn't stand in the kitchen for long. The people I was having a good time have chosen to ignore this about me. I am alone in it. But, when the good times were rolling, it was all partners in crime, having laughs and what I thought meant more than just good times. Now that I can't party and laugh because I am all sorts of physical pain, there is silence. There is no one to be seen. I'm glad this showed itself early enough before I hung out longer with such people.

Life has a very beautiful way of teaching me lessons by reminding me to stick to the ones I know and love and make no new friends because yet again, it has been proven that, people don't care for the human that I am. They merely care for the prob I am for fun times. I can't help but appreciate those who are there for me in dark times, in painful times and in hard times. It's a pity that it took a bad experience to appreciate my real friends. These new people that are coming into my life now... I have no faith in them anymore. In fact, as I said before, I am not making any new friends now. Therefore, I will not care, invest my time on them or even spend time with such people. I would rather watch tv than be around people who are not present when shit goes down, but who are there only during the good times.

You know who you are...


Gloves are off, at your insistence.
I guess, we are foes.

At least we know where we all stand, so no fake smiles and insincere niceties when paths cross.

Now let me drink more painkillers and hope to sleep.


Wednesday, July 3, 2013

How I live.

Hey there,

Imagine that you were like me, thought like me and saw things through my eyes. What would you see? Do you think your view would set you free or imprison you? Well, before I expect you to imagine such, let me give you an idea of how I live.

  • No guilt. No fear. No obligation.
  • If you resist, it persists.
  • There is no right or wrong; there is only what is.
  • Don't change your mind about your dream/goal until it manifests.
  • Live in the Now.
  • Follow your excitement. 
  • Surround yourself with equals or those more powerful.
  • Ask if you do not know.
  • Confuse and Conquer. 
  • Love is Freedom is Eternity is Godly is Life.
  • Change is the only constant.
  • Act with a purpose. Be deliberate to avoid regret.
  • Do not resist a feeling, but once it has occurred, express it fully.
  • Do not tolerate energy vampires.
  • Do not ever start fights, but finish them if they start (unless you have a higher purpose)
  • Love yourself first, love your home (family), love your community and love the world.
  • Listen to your desires and not your fears.
  • Fear is a mind-killer
  • Respect and exercise free will.
  • Express your 5 natural emotions. 
  • There are no coincidences.
  • Cause and Effect.
  • Do not watch the news, or allow depressing data and energy in your aura by choice.
  • Laugh a lot. See the humour in everything, even the "sacred".
  • Nothing is sacred, or everything is sacred.
  • Lead by example. 
  • I come first. I am not a martyr. 
  • Do not pity people. Empathize instead. Pity never fixed anything.
  • We choose how we feel. 
  • We are co-creators in this motherfucker!
  • I am you; you are me. We are one.
  • Know your purpose. I know mine.
  • Be grateful. Always give thanks.
  • Do not risk "losing" the things you do not wish to "lose". 
  • We do not own anything. We are guardians or companions. The word "my" should be outlawed.
  • Smart work over hard work any day!
  • There is no glory in being ignorant. 
  • Knowledge is power.
  • Discretion will keep thee. 
  • Transparency is peace of mind. 
  • Duplicity is a burden to the heart.
  • Don't have your own secrets. Only keep other people's secrets. 
  • The less you eat, the longer you will live.
  • Meditate.
  • If you are wanted, you will be invited. 
  • Never underestimate me. My mind is an endless abyss of twisted horrors. :)

There are plenty more sayings that I live by, none of which are originally mine, but things I picked up from books that I have read, or things which I have adapted from books that I have read. Are any of these similar to how you live? Did you even know that this is how I live? 

My base chakras were once functioning poorly.
While my top chakras over-working.
Neither is good. All must work  sufficiently.
So... Meditate!
The reason I have chosen this path of living is because it is more relaxing, peaceful and loving than the alternative. Of course, we all have demons and conflicts of the soul, but whenever I am confronted by a crossroad, and I am not sure which way to take, be sure that I consider some of these sayings to help me decide. 

The most important of these are the ones that prevent Cancer and Ovarian cysts like guilt. I do a lot of stupid things, offend a lot of people and hurt people unintentionally, but I sure do get over it as quickly as possible because I am not choosing dis-ease over love and health.