What A Few Years Will Do.

Hey There,

I have always afforded myself the prerogative to change my mind. It is the least I can do for myself. I treat changing my mind as a treat, something I do not do often but something I do when I have earned it. I earn the right to change my mind by practicing mindfulness, and thinking extensively about a subject. It is not done haphazardly and it is after I have considered whether it is done for the good of all. Only then do I change my mind about something. It is not superficial or thoughtless because that is how people get hurt, including the self.

When I started blogging, I was 25 years old. It is now 10 years later. Back then I swore off marriage and having children because truly, at the time, it was a bad idea because I was a hot mess, but most importantly, the people who were available to marry and procreate with were even hotter messes. It was just not going to happen under those circumstances, but that all changed in 2015 when I fully decided to be committed to anoth…

A Lack of Trust Leads to Dislike.

I'm reading a book called "The Name of the Wind" by Patrick Rothfuss and the main character Kvothe said, "A lack of trust leads to dislike," and then I thought of all the people I do not like, and I realised that I do not trust them all. This is obvious, but still, I have never really made this correlation before. From this quote, I proceeded to think about trust, relative to my life and I was accosted by many questions and realisations; even now.
Do likeable and attractive people stimulate our trust for them? Do our trust for them actually reflect their real trustworthiness or do they merely behave in a way that suggests to our mind that they can be trusted? What came first: trust or like/ distrust or dislike? And, what are these behavioural cues that make us trust or distrust people? Is this quote a load of bullshit?
The Merriam Webster dictionary states that trust is a "firm belief in the character, strength or truth of someone or something," a be…

Spiritual Vigilance and Critical Thinking.


One who is not truthful is not a spiritual person, but flesh carrying a broken spirit. But, before we go any further, what is being spiritual, and do you want to be be it, or is it overrated?

Being spiritual is being loving, not just of others but loving of the self also. You need to love and know yourself in order to love and know others, and then simultaneously, you get loved and known by others. Being spiritual is being of benefit to others, adding value to other people's lives, but adding value because your cup runneth over with such goodness. Being spiritual is being truthful, filled with integrity and duty to serve, being governed by a morality that is conducive to one's happiness and that of others. It is living a positive life that does not cause pain to others. It is creative and constructive living which builds instead of demeaning, degrading and destroying one's and people's joy. That is my definition of a spiritual being. That is the life I committed t…

Read This If You Are Drawn To Reading It.

Dearest Reader,

If you are reading this, it means one thing: You are ready for a change because you do not like how some things are working out for you right now. It means that you need reminding about the basics. You need to remember that "love is truth is freedom is life is eternal", and that if one of these five things do not exist in your life, none of them exist in your life because they are one thing. Therefore, align your mind, body and spirit to achieve what you desire. Practice gratitude to attract more of the things for which you are grateful, and stop creating fear and disruptions in your life and other people's lives!

Do you remember now how you have lost the plot lately and how you are concentrating on things that do not serve your joy, or how you get sucked into things that don't lead you to your joy? Good. Now you can stop reading because the rest is just to give you an update on myself, and this is about YOU. If, on the other hand, you care about wha…

Why "Catfish: The TV Show" is Important.


I'm watching Catfish from the Swiss MTV channel and I am not only amazed by the amount of people who create virtual realities for themselves in order to deceive people but I am also entertained! What fascinates me the most is that as much as these Catfishes are twisted liars, I actually not only understand them, I also relate in some degree. More than that, I envy these Catfishes, because I often get days when I just want my life to be something else other than what it is.

What I do find incredible about this show is how intrinsically educational it is in a non-pretentious way. Not only is the show educational for creating awareness about the importance of internet safety, but the show exhibits very complex layers that teach us about the intricacies of human nature, especially the nature of people who are afraid, whether it be fear of rejection, fear of judgment or fear of the truth.

What is  a Catfish?

"A catfish is someone who pretends to be someone they're not, usi…

Feeling Strange.

What am I feeling?

I am having strange emotions.

As usual, whenever I do not sleep before 3 am, my emotions become intensified, and I either get greatly inspired to make wonderful art, or like now, I get bombarded by a cacophony of echoes from an abyss filled with humanoid shadows that whirl around each other in my head, like an agitated body of water.

Some of these shadows look familiar. They belong to people I once knew, some belong to people I know now, and others belong to me, as different parts of myself. My Self is seeping into other people, and their forms are seeping into mine. As interesting as that may sound, the reality is that this vantage point, which allows me to see me entangled intimately with multitudes of souls, is quite disorienting. One could say that it is torturous.

I feel no sense of time, or right and wrong as I type this. What is right has lost its meaning and all I feel is what I desire. I feel disconnected to the duality of life at this moment, but because …

I Make Myself Sick!

Hey There,

It's Sunday... No, it is Monday morning. I have a migraine and I am not sure what to do with myself, but I am pretty sure that staring at a computer screen is not the solution, but here I am, online, combing through Facebook and regretting the time I am spending going through people's pictures. You will find yourself on 2012 pictures on a person you aren't really that fascinated with, someone with whom you aren't even friends, and like a terrible car crash from which you can not peel your gaze, you just keep on looking, and looking, and clicking and clicking. It's a strange compulsion, this thing, of looking at pictures of strangers. I am not sure what fix it gives, but hours can be spend on just clicking from one picture to another. Then, when you reevaluate what you have accomplished during such time, you come to the pathetic realisation that you have not benefited at all from this incredibly time consuming exercise. Ugh!

I am sitting here, looking at…