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Monday, January 21, 2013

Attention Comedy Writers!

Good Day Comedy Writer


We are Comedy Sketch ZA,

A new tv show is upon us. 

Before we can even audition comedy actors, directors and technical staff, the producers, namely Veronnica Wolpendz and Atandwa Kani, are in search for a formidable team of comedy writers. Therefore, please submit to us a skit/sketch script of no more than 5 minutes in length. The show will be shot on stage and the format is live, although it might be pre-recorded at first.

Please email us your script. It has to be funny. It has to be a sketch/skit. It has to be relevant to popular culture. 

Closing date: February 28, 2012, 23:59.

Please be creative, and don't be afraid of doing parodies of South Africa's well-known personalities. American personalities are also good material, but we are keen to showcase and make fun of our own. Basically, as long as there is no swearing, nudity, and obscene violence, it's all good. 

Thank You,

Veronnica Wolpendz and Atandwa Kani 

Comedy Sketch Za
Make Them Laugh!
comedysketchza@aol.com

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Silence is Business!

Dearest Reader,

Here's how it works. If I am writing a lot here, I am not writing my book, and if I am writing my book, I am scarce here. So, as you can see, I am very silent these days. Don't you worry. It is for a good reason. I am busy with my auto-biography. You're probably asking, "Isn't she a bit young for that?" Yes, I am young in earth years, but in soul years, I was here from the start. Or, in a normal way of explaining, chronological age ain't nothing but a number when one has had an eventful life.

Enjoy yourselves,

V

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Songs To Listen To.

Dearest Reader,

I am happy to day that I have six more tracks ready for me to lace vocals on and I will be done with my album. Ha! In the meantime, please listen to some old ones of mine. Enjoy!

Here's the song called "I Ordain" by yours truly. Also check out Always and Commentary for the hell of it.

Enjoy

Cheerio


Sunday, January 13, 2013

Beauty

"If anything is certain, it is that change is certain. The world we are planning for today will not exist in this form tomorrow." - Phillip Crosby


Love, Peace and Power

Thursday, January 10, 2013

To Experience GOODNESS You Must Know Evil.

Yes!!!
Dearest Reader,

Friday is the New Moon. It is in Capricorn, ruled by Saturn. It is time to start serious things then, I see. Therefore, today will be well spent meditating upon the things that I wish to begin, or things that I wish to end so that I can begin new ones. Well, I have a book to finish, so I think I will knuckle in on that. I forgot I was writing a book because I allowed myself to be distracted by a guy I used to like, who was very, very horrible to me that I am in shock to find myself so happy today. It makes me wonder what the hell was wrong with this guy to be such an asshole when most guys are very nice out there.

I am not mad at the assholes. I do think of them from time to time, and shiver, or cringe, wondering what the hell had possessed me to even like such a people, let alone try to make things work with them, especially the last one. I should have NOT have let such toxicity in my life, but I did. But, he did help me meet my new guy. I remember that I was exasperated, saying that men are assholes and just spewing venom due to this one horrid person, made contact to give me his educated guess as to what's wrong with men these days.

Although I was no longer interested in the horrible guy, I was still quite angry at him for all the disrespectful ways in which he had treated me, and I was angry at myself too for allowing such in my life.

My current guy and I are not orthodox, but he is exactly what I dreamed of. I have a list and most of the qualities listed are him. We have been friends since I was a child, before puberty, and we only found each other as mates in 2012. This is another amazing thing. I wondered to myself why I had not seen him as a man before then. I wondered why I had not noticed such an awesome man in my vicinity. Then I remembered why. I was still not grown up enough to see and appreciate men like him. I was still preoccupied and seduced by the abusive, disappointing type. I shake my head at my stupidity. To think that for a good decade I subjected myself to men I can obviously never love because I was looking for people who were not lovable.

Love Yourself First
I mean, that's harsh. I am sure their mother and father loves them. We can only hope, but I assure you, and as God is my witness, no one outside of his family loves that man. Unless you love money, which he apparently has loads of, I think he is insufferable, and there I was trying to make a person be loving. I was as arrogant as he was to think that I could change devils to angels. I am glad I gave up. I am happy I realized that you can not change people to make them what you want them to be because had I succeeded, I would have missed out on my guy now. And, let me tell you something, missing out on my guy now would have been missing out on life itself. That is how beautiful, loving, sweet, romantic, firm, masculine, dignified and just plain amazing he is.

My guy and I have a great sexual energy, and I speak freely to him. I literally have no filter with him, and I still can not disrespect him. He just commands respect, adoration and reverence. A fight between us doesn't get petty. There is no name calling or swearing. There is expression of anger, frustration or whatever the issue might be, without losing that fundamental respect, caring and desire for one another.

They are right that it is darkest before the sunrise. My love life before my current guy was non-existent, and filled with the devil himself. Now, I am just relaxed, happy, not a care in the world. All I have are good things to look forward to. I make such comparisons because we live in a relative world, where goodness is not very easy to experience if you have not experienced badness. I have been to hell and back. I have been sworn at publicly by the man I once adored, and humiliated privately. I have been reduced to very little, and almost lost myself trying to make someone see what I saw. I was so frustrated having "feelings" for someone like that guy, I thought I was being made to obsess over him by an evil spirit.

Now, I am in no such darkness. When I wake up in the morning, I wake up and smile because I know what I am about to experience. I wake up and smile as I think of what my guy last said to me the day before. I wake up and smile in gratitude for having my heart full and filled with light. I wake up and dance around at the things we have planned to do together. I wake up and replay the words he said to me, or the pleasure he made me feel. I am in awe of how good life can be. I never knew this was possible.

And, he treats me like a queen.

Rings seldom fit my long, skinny fingers.
He made me smile the other day when we were planning a holiday, when he said something to the effect that he likes that I like quality because he is the same. He said that he would rather spend on a really good steak than eat Viennas.  This was in conjunction to the hotel we were booking. Okay, he said it better, but it was funny. It was also funny when I told him that I ain't camping even if my life depended on it. LOL! He found that hilarious. Yes, ladies and gentlemen. I don't camp. I like looking like I am going to an event. I wear high heels and strut my stuff. I am not plastic or artificial in my hair, nails, eyelashes or anything, but I also keep it fashionable and classy and he likes that. He also likes my choice in underwear, which is usually lace or boy short type. It's nice to be liked. More than that, it is nice to like.

I can honestly say that I am looking forward to the future. As a matter of fact, one day he said, "I wouldn't pursue a woman if I didn't want to marry her and have children with her." I was gobsmacked. What a brave guy! He is not a wimp. He is discriminating and he knows what he wants. This is a good person to share my journey with. And, yes... I wouldn't have appreciated just how wonderful he is had I not experienced the rest of the men of the world who are malignant, oozing puss from a smelly tumour.

Therefore, I am not mad at anyone who ever caused me grief. I am even more appreciative of my guy because of the grief.

My personal lesson in relativity.

Thanks for reading. It's 4am and my guy is obviously asleep, therefore if I can't speak to him, or watch a movie (having trouble watching a movie), I will write about him.

Have a Lovely Day
Veronnica Wolpendz
Love, Peace and Power!

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Heaviness.

Dearest Reader,

Mentally, I can't tell that my friend died. Physically, I think I am feeling it's gravity heavily.

Transiting Venus enters my third house. I hope this gives me more energy and makes me more social. I have become quite the hermit since Saturn entered my first house. I don't leave the house anymore. I only speak to my loved ones. I only have time for those in my heart, otherwise I am sincerely not interested in healthy, superficial banter.

I woke up with some energy today, after sleeping most of the day. I would be in front of the computer, and then find that I had passed out. The cleaning lady has not been in my bedroom for days because I keep on telling her to not bother me. The sound of the vacuum cleaner is too much, and going outside is out of the question because the sun is too bright. I don't know why I am surprised that I am feeling this way. A close friend of mine died. I am sure this is natural, right?

To curb the hermit ways, I decided to have dinner with a friend tomorrow. I thought it might do me well to leave the house and see humans. Another motivator for my social motivation is because although I am meeting a friend, it is also business related. Otherwise, I wouldn't have left the house. *sigh*

I hope I don't feel like this forever. I tried to snap out of it yesterday, and tried to be normal with my interactions with people but I don't have the energy. If it wasn't for my darling, this could have been much worse. At least I have someone who can make me smile. My sleeping patterns are also fucked. So, I am going to sleep as soon as I finish writing this. I am not going to do this business of passing out on my laptop thing.

I need a massage.

Yeah...

My body is sore, especially my back and neck area.

I am not sure how this is affecting me. Death is natural. Why is it making me act like this? I don't get it. I was even surprised to see me cry about it. I never thought I would, and not because I don't care, but because I understand death. But, it would seem as if I am mourning and it seems like I suffered a jarring loss.

I must grieve. I must do it honestly. I must not let it be depression, though. I know when something is wrong with me, and something isn't right with me. I can tell by freaking out about the small, general things that Angel's death has affected me hard. Everything seems more urgent. My career. My love life. My every thing. It's all so urgent now and I feel panicked, as if I might be too late to achieve my goals. I am hyper worried about things that didn't bother me before, because I knew that I was in the process of creating. Now, I am feeling as if I am running out of time.

It's like my mind understands her death as one thing, while the body understands it as another. I am only feeling the results of it in my body. Mentally, I can not tell that my friend died. This paradox is confusing because I find myself not knowing why I am not laughing at jokes.

*sigh* I feel like... I feel heavy.

Anyway, later

The truth is: I just want to be left alone. I just want silence. I just want peace. I want to just sit in bed and stare at the wall. Nothing interests me other than that. I want to be hugged. I can't afford my desires, though. So, I will have my meeting tomorrow, and I will probably come home early to sit on my own again.

This is new to me. I have never had someone I love die.

Veronnica Wolpendz
Love, Peace and Inner Power!

Saturday, January 5, 2013

R. I. P. Angel.

Dearest Reader,

Angel looking like an Angel
I am not going to go into detail about my relationship with Angel (StarOfVenusGirl on LL). I will merely tell you how she affected me and how her death has affected me. I have been in bed crying all day, having a meltdown, uncertain of how to handle the news of the death of my friend. I have been feeling quite needy, helpless, yet comforted by the fact that Angel was a knowing soul, hence her journey has merely just begun.

Due to my understanding of death, there is nothing final about it. I know that Angel is just in another realm now, as she outgrew Earth quite suddenly. I also know that her Earth journey is not done. I know that she will return, as I believe in reincarnation. She might return as a future friend to the children she left behind, or she might return as a future friend for me. All I know is that, she missed her grandmother, and now I am sure that the two of them are catching up on old time, if her granny is still around in that realm.

I know that Angel is still the same soul. One's personality doesn't suddenly change just because you have left your body. As a mother to young kids, I am sure that she is lingering in her children's nursery, looking at the twins that she had just given birth to a few months ago. Also, she is probably relieved of leaving the body and being as she was meant to be, a limitless soul, therefore, although I cry and although I am sad, it is for selfish reasons. She wouldn't have chosen to exit Earth if she didn't desire to do so. She knows exactly what she was doing, why she was doing it now and for whom she was doing it.

Therefore, I have a bittersweet understanding of her death. At one side, I feel cheated that she left. At the other side, I am happy that she has outgrown this place, even if it might be temporarily so. I am quite honored to have known her. I feel very grateful that such an awesome human being came into my life, added value and gave me love. She had such a big heart and she genuinely couldn't do anything but love. Yes, it is unfortunate, but she was too good for Earth. She was too good for all of us as a human. She is now good for us as a soul. In fact, i think she will be more effective this way because now, just the thought of her will bring her to us who love her, and that now, she can be at more than one place at once. I have a spiritual ninja for a friend now, and I am also grateful for that.

After finding out about her death, I was in disbelief. I thought it was a joke. She was young. How could she have a heart attack? Well, as improbable as it was, it happened. Then, as the hours went on after finding out, it slowly dawned on me that she was gone. I then started thinking about my life. I asked myself about who I take for granted, asking myself who I would be distraught about if I were to find out they had passed on. Have I said all my "I love you"s, and have I told everyone what I need to tell them? Have I done everything I desire to the best of my possibilities? Have I been procrastinating about something? Have I been true?

Not her actual ASC for privacy's sake
My friend's death made me realize that I am on the right track. I broke down crying realizing how far I have come. I broke down crying in grief that I didn't need her to die for me to reflect. Then I realized that she died for other people as well who might have not been on point about self-reflection and spiritual growth. She was loved by many people, and I am sure that her death WILL force people to evolve, grow, love and accept a few truths. I know this because my Mars in Leo friend would never die without some huge purpose that will cause drama and growth.

I therefore implore those who are reading this to be mindful of a few things.

1. Don't take your loved ones for granted. Show them your love for them.
2. If you had a month to live, what changes would you make in your life? DO them!
3. Give thanks for all that you have.
4. Don't be afraid to live and love. Don't be afraid of truth and freedom.
5. Banish fear from your life.
6. Do something kind for yourself.
7. Honor your temple (your body) by giving it what it needs to thrive. Don't punish your vessel.
8. Forgive, forget and love the ones who empower you.
9. Be brave. Be your own hero. Be proud to be you!
10. Strive for wisdom.

My friend reminded me that, if I were to die today, I have done all that I desire, within my capabilities and within my resources. I have milked this present moment for all it has. I have said my "I Love YOUs" and I have even said goodbye. I have expressed myself as I am. I have not taken anyone for granted, most of all me.

She loved football and the Redskins
Angel and I had a highly spiritual relationship. I hope to keep in touch with her family because I would like to get to know her children. I would love to tell them about their mother from my perspective because she was an awesome human being and stories about her bravery, tenacity, perseverance and good sense of humour are worthy to be shared.

I am sad to have lost my friend, even though it feels like she is still here. My mind is the only thing that is telling me that she is gone. My heart on the other hand can still feel her. Fortunately, I don't pay attention to my mind when it comes to these matters. I know she is here as I write this. I know that she is not surprised by my words because she knew that this is how I felt about her. She might be surprised that I would like to know her kids, but other than that, she knew how much I loved her because I told her. I suppose this is why it is easier to handle this. I did treat her as if it was the last day of her life, not knowing that it actually was. That is how I treat people. I thank Angel for allowing me to be me again.

Yours Sincerely
Veronnica Wolpendz

Love, Peace and Power!

P.S. Below is an introduction she made when I first came across Angel on a forum called LL.

This was how she introduced herself to us in 2009